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[20 Mar 2003|07:36pm] |
I wish I was writing with better news for you all... ?Unfortunately, I'm not. A couple of days after my last update, they did finally move her out of Intensive Care, into a step-down ward called 'Intermediate Care'. ?She was recovering, but her 'pulse-ox' levels, that measure the amount of Oxygen in her blood, wouldn't stay steady, or high enough, without massive amounts of oxygen, almost being pumped into her.
Yesterday, she called me, somewhat frantic. ?She was having hallucinations, as it turned out, from sleep deprivation. ?It turns out she's somewhat afraid to go to sleep, as well as suffers from sleep apnea. ?Not good. ?The nurse had me work to get her calmed down, to minimal success, unfortunately.
Last night, they ended up moving her back to Intensive care, after having more breathing difficulties. ?Her body doesn't seem to be taking in Oxygen now. ?I don't know whether the trend will reverse itself or not. ?However, her condition is bad enough now that she is now sedated and on a ventilator to help her breathe.
I've spoken with her doctors, and while they say she isn't dying, her recovery prognosis isn't the best. ?There's several options that were given to me, however, they also want to wait and collect better data on her condition, which I agree with.
Words fail me again, right now. ?Your thoughts, prayers, and well wishes are much appreciated right now.
--mec
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| Update - 14 March 2003 |
[14 Mar 2003|07:41pm] |
[ This is another update posted to the sasha-status list. If you wish to recieve these by email, please contact me at mec@dotorg.org. Also, I'll be posting my own journal, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) bluknight, about how I'm bearing up under this. --mec ]
I'm sorry for not writing, everyone. Things have been busy here with a new job, as well as my father going in for a kidney transplant, finally. I haven't had much time to write, and for that, I apologize.
Teresa returned to the hospital last Friday -- I came home from work with dinner, but she wanted to take a quick bath beforehand. Afterwards, she almost couldn't get out of the tub, and was extremely short of breath. I took her to the ER again, where she was quickly admitted with another embolism.
Late Saturday evening, they were trying to draw blood from her and couldn't rouse her. Apparently, Carbon Dioxide built up in her bloodstream, causing a narcosis. They ended up having to work to resuscitate her, and moved her to Intensive Care, where she's been for the rest of the past week. She's awake and alert, but she's having difficulty keeping enough oxygen in her to survive. They've been talking about finally moving her out of ICU, however, I don't know when this will even happen.
I try to stay upbeat in these updates however I can. However, at this point, I think I kind of need to be frank. (It's a lot better than being Mary -- do you know how hard it is to get dresses in my size?) Teresa doesn't know that I'm writing this part, and if you speak with her or see her, I ask that you don't tell her this.
I'm very concerned that she's not going to be able to come home, because she's not going to be able to recover enough to do so. While she's been able to bounce back, relatively, from her last hospital stays, this time, she doesn't seem to be. Her strength and stamina is gone, and she's constantly having to stop talking so she can get her breath back. I'm trying to keep my hopes up, but... It's going to be a long road to recovery this time.
Also -- when she was unable to get out of the bathtub, I was unable to help her. I couldn't lift her or pull her. I really am afraid for what might happen to her when I'm gone to work. She and I have discussed putting her in an assisted living facility, but I'm very picky -- after our last experience, I'm not even going to take her to one that I've not gone to and personally approved.
Anyway....
Right now, words are kind of failing me. I'll try to post later, if I can. People, please call or visit her, if you can -- try to keep her spirits up. I'm not going to broadcast the information, but if you want or intend to, please contact me.
--mec
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| Another update |
[02 Mar 2003|12:56pm] |
[ Hello, everyone, bluknight here with another update. This was posted to the status list on 28 February, and I just remembered to post it here. Remember, if you're interested in being on the email list so you get these as I write 'em, email me. --mec ]
Hello, everyone -- I know, I've slacked off on the job again, and haven't written for a couple of months. Those of you who've asked me about it have heard "Yeah, I'm posting an update Real Soon Now." Well, I'm finally doing it.
When we last left Sasha, she had just left the hospital back in December, and her eye treatments and surgery were in doubt. Unfortunately, we had to discontinue them temporarily, because the CICP program doesn't pay for eye care directly, and we didn't have the $150/visit copay to take care of them. We're hoping that by putting it off, we aren't going to risk much more damage.
Teresa was in the hospital twice in January. The first part was early in the month. Unfortunately, her disability case hearing was scheduled for then as well. The doctors wouldn't release her to go to the hearing, and the judge refused to hold it at the hospital, or via teleconference -- so it was rescheduled for March 4th.
She was back in at the end of January through the early part of February -- she threw yet another PE, bringing the total to 7 or 8 since this all started in November of 2001. They put her in a ward which has double occupancy rooms. She went through 5 roommates while I was there, and was about to start on number 6 before I sprang her.
We've still been fighting on getting Medicaid. She had an interview that was fairly good, however, we haven't heard anything since -- it's been a couple of weeks. We're going to give a call today to find out what's going on.
However, we got a call from T's lawyer yesterday. She had recieved a call from the Judge's office handling Teresa's case. Apparently, the hearing date we had for March 4th has been vacated.
The Administrative Law Judge found in Teresa's favor, dating back to when she first couldn't work -- September of 2000. What this means is that she'll be drawing disability benefits, including medical, going forward.
We don't know how soon we'll be able to restart the vision treatments, or even if we'll be able to. However, things are definitely looking more optimistic here. Please feel free to give her a call at home -- the number is 303 453 0463. She's at loose ends at times, and having the conversation from old friends would definitely help.
Some of you knew that my contract was ending on the 31st of December, and I didn't anticipate a renewal. It didn't happen, of course. I've been out of work since the beginning of January. I am pursuing a couple of new job leads, which, if all goes well, means that I'll be employed again soon. I'm not comfortable giving specifics yet, but I'm continually hopeful. This actually looks like a solid lead, and I've had very few of those. We'll see what pans out.
That's all from here. Catch y'all later.
--mec
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[24 Feb 2003|05:39pm] |
[ bluknight here. Sashababy dictated this to me to post in her LJ. Update RSN. ]
Now,
that my world has turned dark,
I think,
and think again.
I have always loved you,
forever,
and always will,
'til the last beat of my heart,
'til the end of time.
The last breath from my lips,
will be your name,
the essence
of love.
My only consolation,
is
if we cannot be together,
you are not alone
as I am.
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| Another update from Matt... |
[19 Dec 2002|08:28am] |
[ standard caveats apply. contact me at bluknight if you have questions, etc. ]
Well, we've got her back home again. ?(as if the last message wasn't clue enough.) ?I'm getting ready to head out for work, so this is a short update.
The highlights:
- Sasha's pancreas seems to be to the point where it's producing a negligible amount of insulin. ?This means that she is now insulin dependent.
- She's been diagnosed with a couple of blood disorders that are causing the clotting. ?I don't know if there's really any cure for them, but they are getting treated, at least.
- This last visit to the hospital was caused by the filter (installed in the last visit) doing its job. ?It caught the clot and broke it up, however, the clot fragments apparent got into the lung anyway.
- We now have to start paying roughly $150 co-pays whenever we go to do the eye treatments -- this is due to the fact that the eye treatments aren't normally covered under the Colorado Indigent Care Program. ?Sasha and I both feel like this is extortion, in a way -- either pay up, or you can go blind. ?As we write this Thursday morning, we don't know whether she's going to be going in for her third treatment this afternoon or not -- neither she or I have the money to pay the co-pay for these treatments. Hopefully some program will be able to cover it for us.
- They're having her go to several specialists and clinics now, including anti-coagulation ("The Coumadin Clinic"), nephrology ("The Kidney Clinic"), hematology ("The Blood Clinic"), and endocrinology ("The Diabetic Clinic"). ?One which was reccomended was the gastroenterology clinic, but Sasha says "I didn't ask for the anal probe!" ?Go figure. ?I wonder if that clinic is run by aliens.
Those are the main items. ?We're trying to figure out what we're doing for the holidays... ?We really have no idea, yet. ?Probably spend some time with my father and his wife.
Sasha got a nice present from a cherished friend this past week. ?Her vision is to the point where she can't see to read the clock -- so this friend got her a talking watch, so she can know what time it is. ?She's really happy with it. ?Thank you, Megan -- we both appreciate it.
One final note -- I've gotten several requests for our new address. ?I'll respond to the bulk of them individually, however, for those of you with our old address, we've just changed apartment numbers. ?Change #412 to #602. Sasha says "But the phone number is still the same... ?HINT HINT HINT." Please call her -- it'll keep her off the phone with me at work all the time! *grin*
That's it for now. ?I think I'll go to work.
--mec
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This is Matt -- sasha is home. Update shortly.
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[15 Dec 2002|10:21am] |
[ Hello, everyone. It's bluknight with another update on sasha. This is the same thing that's been posted to her status mailing list -- if you want to recieve these updates by email, contact me by email (it's vaild in my userinfo) and I'll add you to the list. ]
Hello, everyone. We're back in the land of the slightly human, after a rather exhausting move process... We've also got some updates on Sasha after her second laser procedure on Thursday.
As you may have gathered from our messages last week, we've moved. We got an oppurtunity to move into a first-floor apartment in the same complex (in fact, just across the 'courtyard' from our previous apartment) and we jumped on it. This was on Thursday evening. I sent out a message on Friday morning after we put the deposit down (we couldn't transfer the old one over)... So we moved over the weekend. Rather short notice, unfortunately, and most people already had previous engagements for the weekend. Not to mention that we really weren't packed. In fact, other than a couple of friends who came over to help Saturday afternoon, it took my mother and I three and a half DAYS to move and clean the old apartment. Needless to say, Sasha and I are both exhausted... And we still have lots of boxes to unpack now. Mail forwards are in place and we're keeping the same phone numbers (in fact, phone service was cut over yesterday -- DSL is another story, however...)
Sasha and I would like to extend our profound thanks to our good friends Ted and Megan for coming out for a few hours on Saturday to help us. They helped, greatly, even in the face of adversity. We couldn't have done it without you guys.
So, for most of the last week, we've been working slowly on unpacking boxes. Sasha went to the opthamologist on Thursday for the second of her laser treatments -- she was under the laser for almost 45 minutes, and was definitely hurting afterwards. Not certain how many more treatments she's going to have to undergo before surgery, however.
Everything above was written Friday afternoon -- I had hoped to finish it and send it out more positively. As I write this paragraph and those below, however, it's Sunday morning.
I ended up taking Sasha back to the hospital yesterday afternoon. She had an episode of bad breathing on Friday morning but seemed to calm somewhat -- however, she didn't calm down completely. When she called the doctor Friday afternoon and told him what happened, he told her to go to the hospital urgent care facility and get checked out. (Urgent care is a step below the emergency room). However, with some other things that went on here, she didn't want to go until yesterday afternoon, and her symptoms were starting to get worse yesterday morning. We ended up taking her in... Where she described some symptoms that she hadn't told me (which also made it sound like she might have been having some kind of issue with her heart) and they got her in and admitted to the ER straight away -- in the trauma ward. In other words, they were a bit worried, even though Sasha was very much lucid, able to talk, etc. etc.
She's been admitted to the hospital again, however, I don't have much of an update yet. It's about 10:15 as I finish this up this morning... I'll try and post again later.
--mec
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This is Matt again -- today is moving day. We're going to be offline for a while. More later.
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[ Hello, everyone. This is Matt again. The following is one of the regular updates I keep emailing re: Sasha -- I'll be posting and backdating the previous ones shortly, now that I have her LJ password. If you're interested in keeping up to date by email (which I suggest, since I may forget to post here) please contact me by email -- my information can by found in LJ bluknight. ]
Greetings, this is your regular Sasha update, hosted by me and brought to you in part by:
* Humulin, the insluin of choice for Diabetics!
* Prednisone, don't leave home without it!
* and by Village by the Park apartments -- welcome home!
And now your host... Matt!
Ok. Now that the humor is out of the way, here's the update. Sasha
went to her Primary Care Physician on Tuesday. (Thanks to Lori for
helping out and giving her a ride!) The meeting went well, and Sasha
is very much impressed by this doctor. Yay! He read over all of her
records from the hospital before her visit, and had some notes and
comments ready -- he seems to really want to help. From those
records, he noted what seemed to be about 10 seperate problems, and
asked Sasha which ones she wanted to work on first. Anyway, she will be seeing him again next month... Until then, we finish off the meds prescribed by the hospital, and continuing monitoring the blood
sugar. Which means, theoretically, we can go off the insulin Sunday!
YAY!
Sasha also went to see the Opthamologist yesterday, as well. He
called in a retina specialist to take a look at her eyes. Apparently,
her eyes aren't all that good -- the vascular degeneration (see:
ruptured capillaries) in her eyes is pretty bad. They took her in and
did the first of the laser surgeries on her eyes yesterday. She's
most likely going to have one a week for the next 4-6 weeks, it's that
bad. This is to just stop the bleeding -- after that, they're going
to have to perform invasive surgery -- it's no longer an option.
Sasha wasn't certain why, however, and I don't plan to let them cut on
her until they tell us exactly why.
I haven't told Sasha that I'm writing this paragraph. If she's having
invasive surgery on her eyes, it means that she's going to have
bandages on her eyes and won't be able to see anything during that
time (which is less than she now sees: vague shapes, some colors, not enough to read a screen, however). During that time, I don't want to leave her in the apartment alone. I'm going to ask some of you local people to come over and spend some time with her while I'm gone at work. Please let me know if you can help.
Another couple of pieces of good news, though. First, we finally got
the disability hearing set -- it's January 8th. They would like her
to be there, although it isn't absolutely necessary... I'm going to
try and get her to make it anyway. Also, we are going to be moving
soon -- we were able to get a ground-floor apartment in our complex --
we just need to arrange to get the deposit together (apparently we
can't transfer our old deposit over, but we can get it refunded) and
down there. It's very close to our current apartment (across the
courtyard, in fact) -- those of you who are local, I'll probably be
calling on you to help move soon.
I asked Sasha for a comment to close this letter with. She said "They
never call, they never write... I'm SO bored." Drop her a line by
postal mail or give her a call -- it would be much appreciated.
That's it for now. Thanks for paying attention.
--mec
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[17 Nov 2002|09:41pm] |
Hello, everyone. This is Matt, Sasha's roommate. She's not posted for a while, and that's normal. What isn't normal is that this will continue. for a while. Sasha's eyesight has been continually deteriorating. It is now to the point that she isn't able to see much to use the computer, although she tries to read her mail occasionally. Furthermore, I just took her to the emergency room this evening. I maintain a mailing list that I post the status on -- I may make a category in my livejournal for it. Otherwise, contact me on my journal or email me (it's located here) and I'll get you on the mailing list.
--mec
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| Break time |
[01 Nov 2002|08:29pm] |
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So I worked off and on all day trying to get two more pages together on my website. I added another poetry page, and finally started to fix the family tree and create a place for it.
I am proud of the work I have put into this as my eyes are failing me. I am afraid that i will lose the sight in either one or both of them. Its a scarey thought that something I enjoy so much and rely on may disappear on me.
I fell into a deep depression today. I ended up crying for almost an hour and crying myself to sleep. I woke up maybe 4 hours later..swollen lipped, feeling awful..trembly. I hate that.
Too much on my mind it seems.
I can't help Betty, yet she doesn't have anyone else to talk to about this. Karl is at the top of my shit list and liable to remain there for the rest of his life. I am really afraid she will go insane trying to handle all of the stress which she is under.
I care..but there is no answer I can give her.
I am feeling really awful right now. A few little things have happened lately that stuck in my head and, even though maybe the other person didnt think they were important,..they had a profound effect on me.
I had built up such a hard wall around my feelings that I was feeling pretty secure and untroubled. That wall crashed down around me today. Its pretty hard to get hit with a wall you built yourself. especially when you are already on the ground.
Its kinda funny too. I was talking to my sister last night, the first we have really spoken civilly to each other in a while. I was telling her how bad my eyes were getting and she was telling me not to wait to get them checked. I think that led me to think about everything falling apart on my body. I was all of a sudden facing the thought that yes I may die. I have talked about death so many times that it was like a comfortable friend almost. But, this time it was different. I looked right at it and accepted it. I accepted my own mortality. and I wasnt scared of it.
Death needs to be scarey. It wasnt even accompanied by bad feelings. Just pure acceptance. I almost told my sister, but her life is in such turmoil right now I couldnt add to it. I know she would not have taken it the way I meant it.
I am discovering new music every day. I am learning every day too. And still I feel like my life is almost over. I wonder where it wiull go from here. If Matt doesnt get hired on or get another contract we will have to move out of here as we wont have money to pay the rent or bills.
I dont have good luck so I am expecting that SSD will turn down my appeal no matter how much worse I am now than I was when it started.
If that happens..I will have to accept it and refile. I need this to be over though. I know I will never work again in any full capacity. I am lucky I can walk through this apartment. I couldnt handle having to go up and down those stairs every day. I cant afford the oxygen anyway.
I think about the next time i will be in the hospital as if it is like visiting relatives now. whereas before I would be panicky just at the thought.
I have had one good thing happen to me. It has been so long since I had anything good happen I almost dont believe it. I responded to a post by someone on one of my communities ..a woman there had a queen sized bed frame to give away free.
I held my breath when I saw it and couldnt post fast enough to let her know I needed one so bad. Even responding then I was third or fourth in line for it. I watched that list all day. I emailed Matt..and I posted again when I felt I needed to clarify my need. My bed has been broken down for almost two years and I had no way to replace it. I hated finding myself slid down to the foot of the bed every time I slept there..my feet hanging over the end..and swollen,
Finally I got the response I needed..It was mine if we could pick it up. I almost fell over myself calling matt. He knew how important this was to me.. He said yes he could get it after work..never even questioning that there was the first blizzard of the year outsidfe. It took him two solid hours to get to the womans apartment ..it was awful out. I was so paranoid.
He called me on his way home and told me I had better have a good meal ready for him after all of this hehe I could have kissed him. He said it was very nice and I would like it.
I cannot thank Hillary enough for that moment of generosity that brought me this bed frame. I am so thankfull.
I am hoping that good things come in three now. I got a bed, Philip got a job he likes..now lets oipe Matt gets hired. Then all will be right with the world. But i will prolly go into the hospital for christmas like last year
..I miss my dad. He passed on dec 16th last year. so he is on my mind now. All the family holidays are coming up too. I will be invited by Matts family which I love..It will just depend on if I am in hospital or not.
Havent heard from Christian in a while I need to email him and show him my website. He is a great guy.:)
Damn nose bleeds are getting to me.
Guess this is enough for now..got alot off my chest.
CIAO
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| ok everybody look at my website.. |
[31 Oct 2002|01:08pm] |
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Especially as I have a new album up. Matt took an early morning tour of out local nuclear research facility.^am..and so I have pics. www.lassarach.net/gallery
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Well I never did get back to post as I have been sick. I am having a hard time breathing again and I am hoping I dont have to go back in hospital.
I saw something great on the Denver list..Someone has a queen sized bed frame to GIVE away. I freaked.My bed frame has been broken at the bottom for ages, and with my circulation I can rarely sleep there all night anymore. I responded right away and told them I am disabled and really need the frame, but I see now there are tweo others interested too. I dont have very good luck, so I prolly wont hear anything back:/ I am still hoping thouh.I would really love to sleep on a flat bed again.
Been playing a bit with my website. Got all of the pics sorted into their own albums by categorie. I really love this gallery program I cannot believe how easy it is.I showed enigma, and he said my site looked good. :)
Missing Philip alot. His pc is fecking up again, and now that he is working he doesnt have as much time to spend online. Plus financiual problems still dog him eveen now tha that he has a regular paycheck.It is being eaten up before he sees is. I wish I could help.All I reqally can do is love him, and give him as much emotional support as I can. I feel bad when I realise I am needing to hear his voice or just know he is there and thinking about me and wishing he could help me too.
Our management people never showed up today to give the potential investors a tour, seems we werent told but we werent on the list this time. lol
I was rather pissed, but at least we have a really nicely clean apartment albeit sore backs.
It was nice to have matt working with me to clean up the place.
I had a nose bleed for almost an hhour yesterday. I was freaking out, thinking I wouldnt get it to stop and would have to go to the hospital. It eventually stopped, but started again later that night. Thankfully only for a few minutes.I am pretty sick of all this blood.lol I need to get rid of it.:P
I slept alot today as I didnt sleep much last night, and now I will be awake most of the night. Nothing unusual there huh. I will spend some time in Gabs. Wish I felt better. My eyes seem to have calmed down a bit. Still blurry, and when I hold a finger in front of my left eye I can see a large black oval area instead of part of my finger. I know I am not explaining that well, but its ok I will have someone look at them next time I am at the hospital.
I am making a nice dinner for matt as he was so good about heling me. Twice baked potatoes, with salad, and broiled chicken. YUMMMMM.
CIAO
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I had an awful night trying to sleep. When I did finally sleep I dreamed so vividly that I wasnt sure I wass awake when I did wake up. Scarey that.
Matt got home about 4am..had a really good time, and didnt drink. I was really proud of him for that.
Well our womderful management have sprung another one day notice inspection on the complex..so we have to go through and thoroughly clean this place again..so potential investors can do a walk through. Weird how all of these apartments look the same inside. This will be an all day thing for matt and I as I cannot be on my feet for long at all.
Spoke to Tony this morning about tetrinet. Philip almost always beats me at that game. lol I dont really mind that much.heh Tony offered to play me a game, but as sick as I have been the past to weeks, and as bad as my eyes have become lately, plus we have to clean, I had to take a rqaincheck. It will be fun to play someone who isnt as good as Philip.:P
We have a big snow storm heading oour way in the next day..it is supposed to dump quite alot of snow on us tuesday and wednesday..just in time for halloween. I remember going trick-or-treating in the snow..not often, but it is pretty reasonable to expect that in Michigan where I grew up.
I am worried about Betty. Her health both physical and mental has steadily gone down since Karl pulled his little disappearing act. Any man with honor would never strand their wife where she cant pay the bills he left behind nor the rent nor to even buy food. This is an awful thing..I cannot believe I loved him.. Betty is now coming up against the discrimination that I myself have already faced. There is nowhere that will help a woman who is not retirement age and doesnt have any little children. Its a very hard wall to hit.
I should hear something regarding my disability case this coming week. I am calling them monday for information.
I am missing Philip so much. I dont want to whine and try to take his attention off of Nicole, yet I need to interact with him so badly. It is hard. Especially when I am so down and lonely and sick. Thats when it hits me the worst.
Thankfully I have been able to occupy myself a little bit with my website. But my eyes are so bad now that they burn and water and blur up with anything I do for more than a few minutes.
Its scarey too.
The pain in my right side has been joined by one in my left sidetoo. not at the same time..at least not often, I think it may be my kidneys, but I cant take the chance that it will be nothing at all and go to the hospital..very much a hasssle.
If they remain or escalate I will have matt takeme.
I dont have much of an apptite either.
My sister..well I dont know what is her problem now. I try to speak to her qnd get very short comments. I guess i was right and her irc friends are more important to her than her family. I have never made that choiuce.Well I guess I will just wait it out again..see where it leads to.
Gods I dont want to get up and clean.
I will try to post more later today.
CIAO
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I woke early..went to the chair in the dark..slept for a bit then the next thing I heard was the door closing as matt went to work.
I waited til 9 to call the doctors office only to be told they were still working on my papers and they would call me when it was straightened out.
I had a fight with my sister in gabriel.
I called the man thqat lena gave su the number for about modular homes, and heard about an hours worth about how expensive and hard it was to get a loan for one..and how they depreciate instead of appreciate and they are considered a bad risk for loans unless they are your own land..after about an hour I told the guy I would talk to matt about it and call him if we still wanted to try. I am very disheartened about this now.
Philip starts his job tomorrow and I had one whole minute with him today. and that was only long enough to tell him I had a bad day..then I never heard back from him.
I have been told that i am too nosey and pry into peoples business in channel.
It is my fault if other people also do not like popups and say anything about it.
I have had some pains in my chest tonight and some dizziness the past few days too.Plus my eyes arre doing weird things too. It feels like they are worse than ever. I need to see an eye doctor too.
I am hot..frustrated, angry, sad,lonely,and tired of all of it. where do my hugs come in? when do I get to be sympathized with?
I don't. So just shut up and stop whining.
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[19 Oct 2002|11:44am] |
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workshop," The devil's name is Depression.
4. Enjoy the simple things. When the children are young, that is all
that you can afford. When they are in college, that is all that you can
afford. When you are on retirement, that is all that you can afford.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. Laugh so
much that you can be tracked in the store by your distinctive laughter.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is
with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be alive while you are alive,
don't put out a mailbox on the highway of death and just wait in
residence for your mail.
7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it is family, pets,
keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health. If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable,
improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Go to the mall, the next county, a foreign
country, but not to guilt country.
10. Tell the people you love, that you love them, at every opportunity.
And always remember . . . Life is not measured by the number of breaths
we take But by the moments that take our breath away.
IT IS SAID..... It takes a minute to find a special person An hour to
appreciate them A day to love them But then an entire life to forget
them. (or recover from them- LOL)
Send this phrase to the people you'll never forget and remember to send
it, also to the person who sent it to you. It's a short message to let
them know that you'll never forget them.
If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in a hurry and that
you've forgotten your friends. Take the time to live!
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